A while back, I did a photoshoot with the very talented Cleveland area photographer, Jessica Orzechowski of Lumos Photography. I have admired her work for a while, so I was super excited to create art with her. However, I did not realize how therapeutic it would be.
I have been modeling for five years, and in that time, I did a bathtub shoot, but I did not really show my stretch marks or anything much. It was a beautitful shoot, and it gave me confidence. This one I did with Lumos took those priniciples and went further.
The shot above was not something I planned to do. The Nightmare Before Christmas Cardigan is by Torrid, and the bra and panty set is by Lane Bryant. However, on the spur of the moment, I grabbed the sweater, and we just tried it. I did something that I do not usually do, I put my tummy (stretch marks and all) on display. The image was fabulous. I felt truly gorgeous. I think seeing myself like this was one of those moments to remind myself that every part of me is beautiful.
This body has carried 5 babies, three to term. This body went through being hit by a car. This body went through an eating disorder. This body has put up with all the fad diets I tried. This body does not give a fuck anymore to what anyone else thinks. This body is beautiful.
The next time you see self-doubt lurking, stop. Look in the mirror. Really look. Ask yourself what all your body has done for you. Then love it. Just as it is. Right now. No matter what you do, gain or lose, you have one body and it needs your love and support.